12.15.08
Time
It is cold today – bitter cold. I was talking to my parents in California yesterday and it was odd since it was actually warmer here in Chicago than in the Bay Area. Mother nature is once again playing with us homosapiens – trying to make us go crazy perhaps.
I was flying home from California last week at this time – thinking about someone beautiful that was not with us. making new friends on a plane and yet being sad at the same time. Time is a strange thing, as it seems to never end – it moves quickly when we wish to just take a moment – sometimes much too quickly – and yet it drags on and on when we want to forget.
I will never forget the joy that Jewels brought into my life. How can you when you snort soda out your nose. But I will forget the pain.
Today I am sitting in a warm home – with a fire going – ok so it is a fake fire with those sterno type flames in my fake fireplace, but it looks real. 
I am working on so many things. Photos, work, programming, and so much more. The life of a Gemini is a simple one – to multitask is to LIVE! That is what we do. And yet in all that I have been doing, I hear her voice, I see her face, I feel her touch.
Last night I played with David Kav at Uncommon Ground. We have played 5 or 6 shows together. I like him. He makes me laugh and he is a wonderful performer. I still have not found his “off” button – he seems to have an endless supply of energy, and it shows in his music and his life. I still thinks he injects caffeine directly into his veins or something though. Anyway, we played some wonderful music together. I sat with friends before. I ate, laughed and shared. And yet from moment to monent I was not sure if I was going to cry, laugh or just sit and say nothing. It is strange how time just plays games with you – with your mind the way it does.
I will get back to work now. I have little time to do a lot. Later tonight I will go to the other Uncommon Ground and listen to the performers of the Open Mic. Then I will return home late, and before I know it, it will be 4am again – my wakeup time.
Time moves quickly in my life and yet right now, it is simply not moving quickly enough.
Peace, love and light
Kat