09.23.07
Why wonder – why wonder – why?
Perhaps some of you recognize the words in the title of this entry – from a song – from the world’s greatest poet – “Kermit the Frog.” And then again, perhaps not. In any case, it is from “It’s not easy being green.”
So why am I writing about that? I guess I was wondering why life is what it is, but mostly, why are people the way they are?
I am old enough to have been in a few relationships. Some good and some bad. Not much different than most people I am sure. We all have our stories. And yet, I wonder – why do some hold on to us? Or more correctly, why do we hold on to the past and the ones we thought we loved and some we simply walk away without a single thought?
And in addition, have you ever wondered why some become bitter – and angry – and why that anger turns to mean-ness? (is meanness a word?) I often find myself looking back at past relationships and wondering all of these questions. What could I have done differently? Should I have tried to save this relationship or that one, or should I have let it go? Was it my fault? Was it her fault? Was it anyone’s fault? Why are we always looking to place blame? And – why do the friends we once had as a couple – why must they choose sides?
I guess even in the straight world, as well as the LGBT world – all of these questions exist.
I don’t have the answers – as in most of my posts, I simply wonder – and ponder the meaning to it all. I will sit and wonder about these questions and more. I will look back on my past and try to answer some of the questions and yet others I will not even give a moments thought. And if I find any of the answers – perhaps I will post them – and then again, I doubt I will find these answers or so many more that I find myself wondering about in my daily meditations.
Namaste,
Kat