05.25.07
Birthdays – new beginnings?
Birthdays come to us each and every year it seems, whether we want them to or not. Mine is no exception. Sometimes we wish we could hide from them, and other times we are excited for them to be here. My birthday is tomorrow. I wish I could hide and yet I wonder what the future holds.
The Tarot has taught me that to each of us we have cycles – phases in our lives. As one phase draws to a close, another is just beginning. As the “Nines” of the Tarot show themselves to be the completion – or near completion of one cycle, the “Tens” show us the hard word we have completed and that we are ready for the next challenge.
I have done several readings for myself in the past weeks and many readings and meditations for others. It seems as though I am entering a new cycle in my life – one that both frightens and excites me. If you have ever had a reading from me, you know I sometimes tell you of things I see and yet as many times as I understand what I am seeing, there are just as many times that I understand nothing of what I see – it is only for the person I am reading to know. As I enter this new cycle in my journey – my life – I see more clearly than ever things that do make sense. And more and more I seem to understand what others tell me when I hear them say things to me. Yes, those who may have transitioned – or passed – are coming to me more clearly than ever. It is both frightening and exciting as these visions and words and more come to me to help me help others.
But as we go from one phase to another, how do we know that we are truly ready? Have you ever wondered that? I know I have. If you think about a job or task at work – it seems simple to understand that you have finished writing a paper or completing some task and you know you can move to the next. As I think of my birthday, I wonder how it is I know that I am ready to move forward? I was told recently by another medium that perhaps I needed to understand more of what is also called “psychic overload” and how to cleanse yourself. How to release that which you bring into your own life and may not always be positive. It made me wonder if I was truly ready to move forward.
I have never claimed to be great at what I do – I simply say I have a gift that allows me to share with others and to help where I can. And yet, as I answer questions for those who ask, I have many questions of my own. Even as I study to understand more of this thing called “divination”, it seems to me I have more questions than answers. And yet I am drawn to learn more and see and feel more as it comes to me.
Many of you know of the struggles that I face and I do my best to keep smiling and be strong through it all. Recently however, a pair of angels came into my life – and the funny thing is they don’t even realize what or who they are. These angels helped me to realize that I was not alone and I could fight all that came to me. At the same time a wonderful woman – a woman who passed this year – came to me and said, “I am here for you too Kat.” I cried. I wonder what it is I have done to deserve any of this – the angels and the wondrous woman who offered her support to me. All I can say is that in my own way, as I approach my birthday, wondering why it is I have to get older – I have been given a sign that tells me I have completed one cycle and I am ready to move to the next phase of my life. Instead of fearing this birthday, I shall look upon it as something that offers new beginnings. Endings of things past – painful things – and with a new outlook of what is to come.
Thank you to my angels and to my guide and to all those who have helped me this year. Perhaps you are all the “signs” I needed to know it was time to move forward.
Peace, love and light,
Kat